It’s that heartbreaking moment when you know.
You just know it.
But how can it be?
You don’t want to know it, or feel it, or even accept that change has happened.
One of the hardest parts of being an empath is knowing when a close relationship has shifted and the feeling of disconnection cuts like a knife. What did I do wrong? Did I say something to piss them off? Did I not give them enough attention? The kind of attention they expected from me? Do I smell strange, odd, or dysfunctional? Did I wake up on the wrong side of the bed? Is my zipper undone? Did I not comb my hair the right way? What!? What did I do to make YOU go away?
It is so easy to blame ourselves. The line, you know the one, you’ve probably heard it before – “It’s not you, it’s me” – can feel like utter bullshit. But, what if it is them? What if the dynamics of the relationship shifted because it is simply time to move on.
Relationships, short- and long-term, follow a natural course. This individual came into my life so I could experience something; you know, those things I’d experienced with her that I wouldn’t have with someone else. And what a blessing.
Today, I feel as though I have lost a close friend. It hurts deep within. This person may not even recognize the shift or be aware one took place. Odds are, one day she’ll see something that reminds her of me, and she’ll think, “Huh, it’s been a long time since I spoke with Cindy. I wonder how she is?”
Today, as I stood at my kitchen sink washing dishes and staring out over the garden, I blessed our relationship and silently said good-bye. My wish for her is to enjoy every moment and feel the unconditional love I extend to her. It’s okay. I’m an empath. I know everything will work out to the highest good for both of us.
Much love to all…